Mrs Boo - 30 Lifer Crisis

Gasp!! Two posts in one day! And I haven’t been writing for a full month! Well now, I’ve got to take advantage of the fact that today I have a half a day off, so I might as well write something for my ghostly readers. Well I would LOVE to write a review, unfortunately, I think it would take too damn long, and I need to submerge my brain in some mindless Korean drama before I go back to slavery tomorrow (who knew that I would be selling my own soul to —– myself?!!).

These past few months as an “entreprenuer” (I really hesitate to use this noun too liberally) has led me to once again review my life’s goals. Throughout my life, I am an easily discontented person, going round in circles to find fulfilment, and asking myself what is the meaning of my life. It is this discontentment, and my burden of great expectations that there is something great waiting for me that I have jumped (suicidally, some might say) out of the rat race. Mindlessly going to my 9 am- 6pm job Mondays - Fridays, enjoying my nights and weekends off, with a good pay and relatively good working environment seemed quite pointless to me after 5 years. Is there all there is to life? I think. Is this what is going to happen for the next 30, or God willing, next 50 years until the day I die and meet my Lord and Maker? Something was missing and I don’t know what the hell it was.

It could be a very nice weekend off with my parents, or friends, and suddenly I would be struck by a sickening feeling like “What in the world am I doing? Am I wasting my life away? Is this IT?” - and this was happening with an alarming frequency. The fact that I was happily married, had great friends and family, did not do much to assuage this feeling. What is my purpose in life? Is there more? Or am I simply bored out of my mind and need a change of environment?

Obviously 3 months down the road - having my own business, and suffering from zero social life, and the stress of meeting endless sales targets - that it is not the answer I was looking for. One thing’s for certain though - I will go NUTS doing this for the next 30 - 50 years. Now I miss the mindless stability, the free time, the rest, that came from being a rat. Sometimes I really hate myself - what do I really want out of life? What are my life’s goals? How can I be fulfilled - will I ever be fulfilled? When is enough really enough? Will a baby change things? Do I need a closer relationship with God?

Amazing, I am coming to 31 and still so screwed up - maybe I named the blog correctly afterall…

I recently heard some disturbing news that has me popping back into my languishing blog. A student of Mr Boo claimed that they (the students), have somehow, by some dumb luck, stumbled onto my blog. How in the world could they see this blog?? Mr Boo did not link his blog to mine, neither did he stupidly reveal my pseudonym, knowing I have written so many incriminating things about him….haha. Poor man, he was really speechless and petrified after the student dropped the bombshell, knowing that if it were true, that his students were INDEED reading this blog, his status as a moral educator, and all that moulding the future nation crap would be flushed down the toilet.

Now, frankly, if YOU are Mr Boo’s student(s) - scoot NOW. This blog is NOT for the under-21s. I will not sanitise this blog just because of some irrational fear that YOU delinquent students are reading my more titillating posts. Yes, dear student, some of my posts are indeed quite salacious, and they do show a side of Mr Boo that you will never see in school (God forbid!). So if you cannot help yourself but read those R21 articles, then for goodness sake, don’t give Mr Boo any weird stares in school, or spread unnecessary gossip to conservative farts (ie. school management or your Parents!!), and jeopardise what is an outstanding teacher, and outside of work, a great husband and family man. (Let me sniffle.) If you want to continue reading adult material, then behave like an adult!!

But on the side of caution, I am removing the link to Mr Boo’s blog, to protect his reputation. Afterall, we still live in a very conservative society, who cannot see teachers as hot studs! With a scandalous wife. Haha….