Mrs Boo - 30 Lifer Crisis

Oh, and by the way, I have recently added a counter to check how many visitors do drop by my site, particularly, the “accidental ones”. In view that there are millions of Internet surfers out there, I figured I may just get some traffic. Unfortunately, those numbers at the bottom are telling me that the visitors are just “me, me and me, and perhaps Mr Boo”. How very sad. And what a big blow to the fragile ego of a budding author.

I am in a tight bind. Since I am not too keen on telling all my friends, how do I get strangers to come in and read? More scandalous posts?? If you happen to be an accidental visitor, and have some ideas, do feel free to contribute.

Since I started blogging, I have also started reading other people’s blogs, particularly those of a more scandalous nature.

It is so strange how things have changed over the last 1 - 2 decades. I still remember writing journals/diaries as a kid, and fanatically trying to find secret hiding places in the house so that my mother couldn’t find them and read my innermost thoughts (childish and inane thoughts those were). The only time when I was truly exhibitionist with my writing was when I was writing fiction (mostly short novels and poems), and I showed them off to close and appreciative friends.

Blogging, on the other hand, is like stripping oneself naked for the whole world to see (well, anyone who stumbles upon this site anyway). So far, I have written a fair bit about my sex life and some of my personal thoughts under a thin veil of anonymity. I have certainly come a long way since my childhood days!

I wonder: Is it easier to bare oneself to strangers? Of course I have invited a few friends to take a look at this site, but generally I have kept quite quiet with regards to this newfound blogging interest of mine. I am still not too sure how many friends I would like to tell - sharing secrets via the normal channel (i.e. talking) is one thing - have friends read the blog is another, it feels like they can see deep into my soul and dissect my innermost thoughts.

Maybe it is because of this innate fear that most of my posts so far have not been truly self revealing, but hovering around rather “safe” topics like movie and book reviews (the “Female Orgasms” posts the exception), rather than my inner turmoil and what nots. But I would think as time pass this blog would become more intimate - to what level I am not too sure yet.

But I honestly love writing (nothing work related of course). And I know I write well, and love the idea of people reading what I have written. In view that I am quitting and going into business soon, I may have more time on my hands to get my creative juices flowing. I have an idea of writing stories on this site - like a series, and people reading them chapter by chapter. Who knows? Maybe one day, a publisher will like look at my site, discover my prodigous talent and offer to publish my stories, and I will become rich like J.K. Rowling!! Until then this will be just free entertainment for my readers.

Now if only I know what story to write….hehe